2014 !

It's 2014! i know, it is a little bit late cause its august right now. but im still going to write some part of my life being a college girl. yup, college. so, i started my college life on june this year taking diploma in psychology. At first i reach my hostel, everything was just different. new friend is added in my list, new thing to learn like independent, everything is just NEW. being away from family is not fun at all, SERIOUSLY. you will started to use your own money to buy things instead of your parent's money. budget is something that is very very very IMPORTANT once you live by your own. before i forgot, i found out that its very hard to find a friend like you have in secondary school A.K.A "satu kepala". i just cant be myself here to be honest. i don't feel comfortable living here, culture shock maybe? hope i can get used to this kind of living. actually i prefer living with my own or with people that i talk a lot with, like 2 of my roommate now. dengan crush pun boleh bah. HAHAHAHAHA [想太多seja bah kau, toto.] i love living with someone that know how to start a conversation because i'm not that type of person. that is why i need those kind of friend. i've been thru a lot of awkward situation and i dont like it at all. ughhh ~ all i want to think about now is focus on my study, exam is around the corner fat ass. then i'll be goin home! nothing is better than home sweet home~ so, sabah, wait for me! i'm coming home, i'm coming home, tell the world i'm coming home~ i'm gonna miss you crush, till we meet next semester [october]
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Love ? No .

soo , everything seem to be very great lately . Just found a new TARGET@crush at my workplace , dammmit he's soooo handsome and tall , totally my cup of coffee . My two other friend said that he's a little bit of a "gentle ; soft " type of guy, hahaha . who care ? I know i don't . But ........................ my friend also have a crush on him , we both likes the same guy , ughhh ! what should i dooo ???? otokee ? never mind la , diam2 seja laa . I don't even bother to let him know what i feel cause in the end , i don't always get what i REALLY REALLY want . It's not like i'm giving up , I just wanted to lower my expectation - " higher expectation lead to disappointment " . I was just thinking ' can i just let my feeling go ? ' so that i don't have to hurt myself again and again. i love the feeling of having a crush on someone but i'm sick and tired of the respond that will come out . heartache . so , thats it , i'm going to sleep . bye